Jackson William Leslie Jordan, the man who for the past two years has been terrifying Uma Thurman’s family with letters, e-mails containing threats of suicide, wanted to set something straight Friday when he took the stand in a Manhattan courtroom. The 37-year-old man said that he never intended to scare the actress nor her family. With all his actions Jordan wanted only to obtain an encounter with the 38-year-old Thurman. Further on, the man admitted that he may have over reacted with some of the notes that he left to the actress.

When saying this, the man accused of talking and aggravated harassment of the actress referred mostly to a card he delivered to Uma’s movie trailer that featured a drawing of an open grave, a headstone and a man standing on a razor blade, and the statement, "My hands should be on your body at all times." Jackson explained that the card was supposed to amuse the actress rather than to scare her. "It was a clumsy and poor way of expressing my emotions for her."

The former mental patient appears to be kind of clumsy when it comes to women. Through his diary the court learned that Jordan never had a girlfriend as he was to shy to ask a woman out. "In my memory, I have never asked a woman on a date," he wrote in his diary.

The diary was like an enormous letter to the actress in which he revealed his infinite love for her in a quite flowery writing and in which he described the actress as his “sweetheart” or his “baby.” The court drew the attention on a specific issue included in the diary: the fact that Jordan drove for three days from California to New York in order to meet Thurman, but he ended disappointed by the fact that the actress turned out to have a new boyfriend. Another proof of his desperate desire to encounter with Uma was the fact that he spent days to find her house in Greenwich Village with the help of only one photo.